Letter 64

Dear <Name>,

I know exactly how you feel right now. Not because I’ve been there, but because it simply shows. I truly understand it’s never easy to try to pretend you’re insensitive, but I hope in your life you come to realize that you are not a princess. You don’t have the crown to rule a nation, nor the power to make everyone bow their heads before you. I think this is the perfect time to tell you though, if you really are a beautiful swan, you don’t have to display yourself in the pond because beauty itself will capture the eyes of the beholder. Pardon me, I know it’s very much okay to dream, but you know it this isn’t fairytale or one hell of a movie. Everybody needs attention, everybody needs love; I admit I would want that spotlight on me sometimes, but I’m impressed, nothing compares to your need for that. It’s almost like I’m watching a 7-year-old child with ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder) running around in an adult’s body. And it worries me.

It worries me because everyone else thinks the same thing about you. And that is a revelation, you know. Try as I might not to judge you for being you, we all have differences and we can’t please everyone; but the least you can do to save yourself is keep your big mouth shut and give the world peace. You know, sometimes in life we’ve gotta learn to accept and embrace the fact that we’re not made to be the prettiest of them all. The problem is, when you refuse to be aware of those deadly insecurities you keep down deep inside your lonely, dissatisfied heart. Let it go. Otherwise you suffer hiding yourself inside the closet. You think you’re just being true to yourself; but being so means you completely understand you’re one imperfect human being, you’re not always right, not always cool, not always nice, not always good. So let your pride go and get real.

I watched you, I stood beside you, I blinded myself with your charming arrogance. You see, I never noticed you were too good to be true. And I never even cared even if I feel used by you. And right now I feel so freaking glad I woke up from deception. I think time itself has come to advise me that I should walk away; not because I hate you, but because I need my space. I need my own thinking, ‘cause I deserve to be me. And I definitely don’t wanna be you. I’ve learned quite a lot of things from you and I’d thank you for that; it’s not like you’re so evil and all that. I just hope you rest from being bossy, rest your mouth from too much blah blah blah’s, rest your heart from being bitter. Remember that like everyone else, you don’t have a perfect life, nor did you come from a perfect family; and as hard as it is to swallow the truth, we don’t always get what we want. We don’t always get the best of everything. This is what you need to learn to digest into your system. Now I’ve made this move and I’m bound to stick with it.

In case you haven’t noticed, you talk too much like there’s no tomorrow; and it’s not every time that we’d like to hear you and your humongous mouth trying to make an impression. Everybody thinks you’re just as good as a fragrant promise, but face it, you’ve never really experienced everything in life. You’ve never had it all nor lost it all; so stop talking people out how they should be living their lives because you’re not them. And even if you’ve been in a similar situation doesn’t mean you’ve been in their shoes. There will always be that difference. And we may be listening to your words but it’s not like we’re gonna do as you say. Try to picture that – you talk like you know it all; you act like you’re an expert only to prove that you’re actually an empty can; you strike on others as if you have a beautiful life, a beautiful marriage, but all these are actually proofs that you’re unhappy.

 

It’s never too late ‘til everybody turns their backs on you. You don’t have the strings to pull them on whichever way you want like their puppets or something. Start to think about anything else but yourself. Try to be more open to life’s harsh realities and know that in this world there are other lives and stories but yourself and to others you’re just a part of it like they are in yours. There’s more to this world than money or wealth, there are even greater joy than getting the best of everything; if you didn’t get what you want, you’d sure get something and in that little something you have the power to make it bigger and happier like it was what you’ve always wanted. You just have to try and learn to give importance to other good things than keep aiming for what’s always better than others’. Stop comparing, this is not a competition.